[he glances over but before he can say a word--it's that familiar inn again.
It's late at night and some commotion has managed to rouse Ahito from his sleep. It's not a comfortable feeling to share, feeling what Ahitop feels. The world has a blurry quality to it, it's a little too warm. Groggy, confused. still weak from using his power...and then a spike of terror as someone grabs him, wrenching him up from where he was on the floor and starting to drag him from the room. The panic in his voice when he calls for Ginko is obvious]
On the other hand, another Ginko is present. He doesn't sound like himself, you know that for certain. But it's good and comforting to hear his voice and even before Ahito is let go--there's a sense of security and safety from knowing Ginko is there.]
We need to leave. We can't stay here.
[The panic is still there though. We need to go, we need to go... And Ginko replies "First thing tomorrow morning. We can camp if we have to."
No. No now. Please now. But that's not what Ahito says aloud.]
[He wants to go so badly. But once the adrenaline subsides he's so tired. It'll work out. And Ahito sleeps and the scene fades to the next time he wakes
the girl comes in and starts to fret about this and that and feed them and really she's pretty suspicious from an outside P.O.V.
Which doesn't matter because Ahito's one hormone is interfering, even as he tiredly explains why he can't save everyone]
[He waits and waits...he said he'd only wait five minutes but it takes nearly an hour before he decides to leave. He takes a moment to tuck Ginko's blanket over him--he doesn't like to leave him alone. But there's no choice. So he makes his way out and...
And the innkeeper makes small talk before he suddenly grabs Ahito by the arm.
It's not panic now--it's dread. Complete cold dread that leaves you numb and shocked and he doesn't even fight at first as the man starts to drag him.]
[it's hot and it's so tiring but he gets through it. He throws a bit of a fit at the man but is calmed into accepting a second person to heal. Its already too much but its not like they'd listen to him anyway.
But its an old man, it's too much, it's a waste of him. Even if he's going to die--why for THAT? That's not fair. And he says as much and refuses to heal the man.
Then people are grabbing him, manhandling him--it hurts. They're holding too hard and he can't get away and he's afraid and he doesn't want to die for something like this but they force open his eyes and that hurts too]
You're hurting me.
[but they don't care and it HURTS. Everything is hot, inside and out, burning down to the gut and when he coughs hard, blood spraying, his throat burns too.
Then something Ginko has never seen before: Ahito's crying]
[ whereas before he was staying mostly quiet and calm, that - that is severely upsetting. he kneels next to Ahito sharply, reaching for his shoulder. and glaring back at the villagers. shaking slightly, trembling with both grief and anger. ]
[he's allowed some sleep--they offer to bring Ginko for his 'comfort' but he rejects that. Don't let him see me like this. Don't let him see this.
He sleeps for awhile but its not long enough, he awakes as hot and dizzy and weak as he was when he slept. But as they drag him to his next 'patient' all the fight is gone from him.
It'd be so easy to just fall asleep, it'd be so nice. But his coughs jolt him awake and he's being held up again.
And then he speaks up after the healing is finished, sounding young and afraid and pleading even though he's not asking for anything]
I.
I can't see.
[but the only response by everyone is to rush to fit in one more]
[Ahito panics--he begs and he pleads--i don't want to die, i don't want to die, there were so many more things i want to do, i'm barely a man it can't end like this--but it does no good and there's nothing left to do but heal and cry and hack up blood until he's thankfully allowed to pass out
and the memory ends here because he never wakes
But Ahito is there now, gripping onto Ginko. ari is finally done dragging dat flashback out]
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altho he manages to not notice this lil sweet treat off to the side. That girl had gotten that for him, hadn't she...]
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Ahito?
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It's late at night and some commotion has managed to rouse Ahito from his sleep. It's not a comfortable feeling to share, feeling what Ahitop feels. The world has a blurry quality to it, it's a little too warm. Groggy, confused. still weak from using his power...and then a spike of terror as someone grabs him, wrenching him up from where he was on the floor and starting to drag him from the room. The panic in his voice when he calls for Ginko is obvious]
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I'm here, Ahito. Right here.
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On the other hand, another Ginko is present. He doesn't sound like himself, you know that for certain. But it's good and comforting to hear his voice and even before Ahito is let go--there's a sense of security and safety from knowing Ginko is there.]
We need to leave. We can't stay here.
[The panic is still there though. We need to go, we need to go... And Ginko replies "First thing tomorrow morning. We can camp if we have to."
No. No now. Please now. But that's not what Ahito says aloud.]
Okay. Okay. Tomorrow morning.
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... We should have left right then.
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the girl comes in and starts to fret about this and that and feed them and really she's pretty suspicious from an outside P.O.V.
Which doesn't matter because Ahito's one hormone is interfering, even as he tiredly explains why he can't save everyone]
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Too late, Ahito.
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Ahito reminding him anxiously we need to go. Offering to go on by himself, but Ginko telling him not to.
"Not safe. You could collapse out in the wild."]
I think I rather take my chances with the wild....
[But he lets Ginko go back to sleep, hugging his knees, trying to ignore the anxiety that's eating at him. It's not safe...it's not safe...]
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You were right. I just wanted us to be safe, but ...
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And the innkeeper makes small talk before he suddenly grabs Ahito by the arm.
It's not panic now--it's dread. Complete cold dread that leaves you numb and shocked and he doesn't even fight at first as the man starts to drag him.]
I'll die.
I can't heal an entire village.
I'll die.
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Why did I even accept that drink?
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And then the dread and the shock vanishes into anger and spitefulness. Why should I die and help these people?!]
Then we can all die! I won't be used like this!
["-- don't say that. It's only sleeping medicine. He wanted poison."
And the rage subsides just as quickly. Ginko's still here. Ginko's still in trouble if I don't do this.
All that's left for a moment is resignation to his fate. I'll die for these people. There's no helping it.
He's pulled around and brought to heal some young man. But he takes off his glasses willingly--thinking of Ginko the entire time.]
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... You shouldn't have done it for me. We were both dead already.
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But its an old man, it's too much, it's a waste of him. Even if he's going to die--why for THAT? That's not fair. And he says as much and refuses to heal the man.
Then people are grabbing him, manhandling him--it hurts. They're holding too hard and he can't get away and he's afraid and he doesn't want to die for something like this but they force open his eyes and that hurts too]
You're hurting me.
[but they don't care and it HURTS. Everything is hot, inside and out, burning down to the gut and when he coughs hard, blood spraying, his throat burns too.
Then something Ginko has never seen before: Ahito's crying]
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He sleeps for awhile but its not long enough, he awakes as hot and dizzy and weak as he was when he slept. But as they drag him to his next 'patient' all the fight is gone from him.
It'd be so easy to just fall asleep, it'd be so nice. But his coughs jolt him awake and he's being held up again.
And then he speaks up after the healing is finished, sounding young and afraid and pleading even though he's not asking for anything]
I.
I can't see.
[but the only response by everyone is to rush to fit in one more]
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Whatever happened after this, you brought on yourselves.
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and the memory ends here because he never wakes
But Ahito is there now, gripping onto Ginko. ari is finally done dragging dat flashback out]
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They abused you.
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Just forget it, okay?
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Do you want it back?
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I'm still here.
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and hunches his shoulders, wincing]
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